BUT in 2011 I started on the Norwegian School of Creativity (Norges Kreative Fagskole) where I took the course Film. I found out that if I couldn't make myself be infront of the camera...then why not be behind it!
I really have to thank my boyfriend for helping me a bunch with my low self-esteem, he made me believe in myself and that I should do anything to follow my dream. So I did! Well I got one step closer at least...
The first year was really great, we did a lot of productions and we evolved through everyone of them. At this stage I could already say that camera wasn't quite my thing. Screenplay on the other hand was. I have always loved writing stories so writing screenplays was just up my alley.
My second year, which is now actually, is where I got a taste for being a producer. On our projects I was always the producers because everybody else wanted to do the technical stuff and not have to worry about the paperwork... Me on the other hand sort of... like paperwork. Well film paperwork. Getting actors, locations, fixing the contracts, getting everything we needed and cheap or...for free. And I actually enjoy that. But I think I still have A LOT to learn.
Now that I know my two places in film (writer, producer) it easier to focus and work hard for it.